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Hi I thought I would tell you a little about
my family and then impose on you a story I wrote.
Tom and I have been
together 13yrs and I suffer from Panic attacks deppression and
Fibromyalgia.Our family have been victims of crime and I also have Post
Traumatic Stress Syndrome.
Our son Mike is graduating next week and we
are very proud as he is an ADD kid and also suffers with deppression.
I
need to lose 110 pounds and I hope maintaining these pages will keep me from
eating.

Here is Mike,my dad ,me and my
hubby Tom!!It looks a little strange as my mom said"Gee the table has a
mirror over it.I want to take your picture in it.Okay thats the out come.Can
you stand one more??This is just Tom and MIke.

I will at a later time tell you about being victims and our journey to
become survivors but for now I plan to wait a while.
Before I start my
story I would like to thank the wonderful artists at Fantasyland Graphics
where I found the Unicorn and the wolves and dreamcatchers which will be on
my sons page and the sci-fi for my husband.
If you havent been there
please click on the links below and check them out.
The Picnic
This is my first attempt at writing and this story is a figment of my
imagination and any resemblance to anouther story is purely
accidental.One day long ago I was entering adulthood.I had left a
horrible relasionship based on terror and violence.I left because I knew I
was with child and have stayed out of the violence cycle ever since.
It
was autumn and we were in the midst of a spectacular Indian Summer.I felt
drawn to the beauty of the trees and the hint of winter coming and wanted to
go somewhere surounded by trees and picnic.I needed to clear my mind from my
past and plan my future with my baby.I filled a basket with fruit and
sandwiches and a bottle of wine.I also packed a soft blanket and large
pillows.I had no destination in mind so I told noone I was leaving.I drove
to the expressway and headed south.
Soon I was out of the city and into
the farmlands with the cows and horses grazing and remembered fondly of my
riding as a child.I rolled the windows down and allowed the sharp smell of
the animals and hay fill my senses.As I continued I was soon on a strech of
highway with few exits and decided the next one I would take.
The exit
ramp curved around and at the end sat one very old gas station.I pulled in
and an elderly gentleman came out to fill my tank something rare in these
days!!I asked if I could freshen up and inside everything seemed so outdated
like I stepped into anouther time.Upon paying I asked if there was a park or
someplace I could walk and pinic and he smiled,I swear to this day his eyes
twinkled,and he said"turn left and keep on this road.What you're looking for
will find you"I thought what an odd charater but followed his
directions.
I drove on seeing old houses with barns trying valantly to
stand upright and failing badly.There were no people out enjoying the
weather nor were there any animals.My car was the only one.At some point I
saw the road was not paved and was not as wide ahead a large grove of trees
loomed like a wall.The leaves so beautiful it seemed as though they were
saying,please let us stay attached to our home,but as with everything their
time was almost over and in the spring the circle starts again but just for
today they were mine.
I drove into the trees and was stopped.The road had
ended but there wasn't a dead end sign.I turned to back out and found I was
blocked on all sides.I will admit being a huge horror fan that a chill ran
up my spine as visions of chainsaw weilding men ran through my mind.I was
stuck so I did what anyone would do,I got my things and started to walk
along a small footpath,I entertained myself with thoughts of someone having
to airlift my car out of there and other wild ideas.Judgeing from the sun it
was about two oclock and having food and a blanket I knew I would be
alright.
Within minutes I came to a clearing with a small waterfall and a
fast running brook.It was breathtaking and I ran to drink.The water was
crisp and cold and it soothed my dry throat reviving me.I looked around and
saw on my side the clearing was brown and dry while across the brook
everything was green and lush with wildflowers growing everywhere.I crossed
the water and decided this was where I would stay.I spread out my blanket
and placed the wine in the brook to cool it and laid back on my pillows
letting my senses explore all the breathtaking beauty surrounding me.I
napped a short time and awoke feeling hot and sticky.As noone was around I
walked to the waterfall.It was about ten feet high and there was a ledge
about waist high.Feeling very carefree I undressed and sat on the ledge and
let the water caress me.It came down and wrapped me in cool silky fluid and
I felt as though someone had wrapped me in a glorious rich fabric and held
me fast so I would feel safe.I thought of the time when something magical
happened and relived the time when my guardian angel saved me.
I think
when a woman is battered she doesn't "make love"she gives in so there really
is no pleasure just relief that they aren't being beaten.It was one of those
times when a strange pleasurable feeling came over me and at the moment of
his climax I heard a womans voice so close to me and she said"You are with
child now,leave him"I swear I knew the moment of conception and taking her
advice I left.
I smiled and held my stomach hoping my baby would be
alright and fearing that he wouldn't be.I left the water reluctently but I
was hungry and tired.The sun was low and the nightly show was about to
begin.Settleing back on my blanket I ate,had some wine and settled in for
the night.
I must have fallen asleep quickly because when I awoke it was
dark and the moon high and full overhead.A sound had roused me and I
listened for it again.It sounded like hoofprints and I peeked above the
grass expecting to see a deer.Instead what I saw was a huge white stallion
sixteen hands at least.He walked out sniffing the air for danger,sensing
none he came to drink.I stayed perfectly still as this great beast came near
me his long mane grazing the top of the grass.He drank and then looked my
way,
I know how this will sound but I will tell it anyway he had a golden
horn in the middle of his forehead!A unicorn?Was I seeing things, did I
drink bad wine, what was happening?The Unicorn turned to the woods and
nickered softly and as I turned to look out came a smaller unicorn and two
foals.A family of unicorns all white and gold the moonlight enhancing their
beauty as they came to the brook as well.I stared in wonderment thanking God
for showing me this animal that lived only in fantasy.After they drank the
male and female began to play,a fantastic game of tag,they leapt and ran
chasing each other while the foals tried to follow along but their legs
still gangly and awkward looked so silly that I laughed aloud.The foals
stopped and came close they heard me and were unafraid.I reached out to
stroke their soft noses and the hard bump in their forhead that would in
time become a horn.So absorbed was I that I did not hear the male approach
until he whinneyed loudly and rose on his hind legs.I fell back and covered
my head in fear that he would attack but he did not.He came and smelled me
then nuzzled me coaxing me to my feet.
I stood and ran my hands over his
muscular shoulders and his mane was silken.He then knelt by me and holding
my breath I mounted him.I don't know how long I rode but we raced through
the clearing continuing the game twisting and jumping I held on to his mane
tightly but I wasn't afraid.If this was just a dream I wasn't going to get
hurt and I did not know if this was real or not.Soon,much to soon,the
unicorn knelt to let me off and they ran to the forest.
My next memory was
waking up to the sun feeling rested.I looked around for some proof that I
hadn't dreamt the unicorns but I found nothing.I knew my family would be
worried and I gathered my things and began the trek back to my car.I
wondered how I would get out but I soon saw that my car was sitting on the
road without anything blocking it.I got in and drove off thinking how silly
it was to have thought my dream was true although I couldn't explain the car
being trapped.I stopped at the gas station but found it closed and from the
look of it it had been closed a long time.I got out and looked in the window
and saw cobwebs and empty broken shelves and decided perhaps psyciatric care
was in order.I returned to my car and returned home.I sat in the car
thinking of what to say when I removed my keys and on my keychain was a gold
unicorn
To this day I can't explain what happened that night nor how the
gold unicorn came into my possesion but in my heart I knew that to me if
guardian angels are real then unicorns must be to.
I would like to say
that this story took its own path and some of it are facts.I was badly
abused and I knew when I got pregnant because the voice was real.I also have
from time to time asked my angel to hold me and Iclose my eyes and envision
a white light and lacy wings and a feeling of warmth and security envelopes
me.Thanks for allowing me to impose this on you.